I mean, they are my children - so I should be able to handle them on my own, right?
But this characteristic has one terrible consequence.. Because you can't reach out, you slowly get closer and closer to breaking point. Everyone's breaking point is different.
Today, after four months with a new baby living on up to 4 hours sleep a night, two tantruming and sleepless toddlers and a threenager - I've realised that I'm too close.
Too close to losing control, too close to my breaking point.
Today I'm asking for help. I'm seeing my GP because he can get me into Tresillian.
This is a magical place, filled with magical people that spend their days and nights helping you find routine, get your children to sleep, and give you techniques to get through when you've reached this point.
When you feel like you've tried everything and you are still under water.
I feel completely defeated, beyond exhausted and totally useless - but I'm also determined to get the help I need to look after my family. They need me, so I need to find help.
If you need help, your GP can help you too. There are so many people and organisations that are there ready to do just that.
To find out more about Tresillian visit:
https://www.tresillian.org.au/
